THE HIGH PLAINS DRIFTER

this dream

so something i’ve realized about my dreams since my parents have passed is that i mainly dream about my mom. i dream of her a couple times a month, and they’re not really intense dreams or anything, it’s very casual, like her way of telling me she’s okay. i’ve had only a couple dreams of my dad since he passed, and in both dreams he didn’t seem like himself, almost as if i wasn’t actually dreaming of my father but dreaming of a portrayal of him instead. however two nights ago i had a dream that my dad was hosting some type of huge award show. i remember sitting in the crowd, and when i saw him on stage i said “that’s my dad!!” so i ran back stage and spent a long time looking for him in-between him going on and off stage. i finally found him in his dressing room. i knocked on his door and he took a look at me and said “who’s this beautiful girl?” almost in a flirtatious manner—- but after a second his facial expression dropped, and he realized it was me. it’s like it took him that second to realize it was his daughter. in real life i have not seen my dad since i was 12, so i obviously look nothing like what i used to. he gave me a huge hug, and in-between tears of happiness he said “it’s been so long, you’re so beautiful” it was so nice seeing my dad in my dream…